So, I just did something really crazy called cancelling my facebook and myspace accounts. And let me tell you: those people do not want you to leave! When you cancel your facebook account, a page comes up with pictures of the friends you talk with the most and above their picture, it says “Mike will miss you. Amanda will miss you.” It makes you think twice, but something has been turning in my heart about all of this that I am still trying to find the words for.
I love being able to stay connected to my friends; people I don’t get to see or talk to that often. And it is so nice to get encouraging comments about my music and ministry from people who support me. It’s cool to see photos from shows that people tag. But, I guess in my mind it boils down to this question: what kingdom am I building? I can spend an hour looking through pictures that people have tagged me in on facebook over the years. I can spend an hour posting pictures of the parts of my life that I want to put on display. But, I tell you, I feel sick when I am done; like I am saturated in my idea of myself and of the other’s idea of me. And do any of those ideas even matter? When all of that is said and done, I have wasted that much energy building up my own kingdom; a kingdom that is fading away.
I write this in humility because I will always struggle with vanity and self-absorption. It is the plight of humanity. But, I want to keep striving to hide my life inside of Christ. His is the only kingdom that really lasts. So, I want to help to build it here on earth. And it is only in Him that I am ever really known. I will miss you, facebook and myspace friends. But, my love for you reaches farther than a comment wall and I am running out of clever things to say on my status! Peace! ~KP
ah i feel u kelly p u the best still love u
So wise so wise